Between the stress of Portlen, school, and work, and the fact that I will never have enough money to support my family, and I may struggle my whole life, along next to the constant fighting and bickering thats been going on just about every day between my boyfriend and I, and my stupid fucking step mom controlling my dad into not being the same man, I’ve officially hit my breaking point. I’ve never been so fucking frustrated, angry, sad, disappointed, worried and not to mention stressed in my life. My anxiety is going nuts right now. I wish I could just take 4 sleeping pills and sleep for sixteen hours straight like I used to do back in the day. I want a way to shut my fucking brain off from the madness.
I’m going to bed and pray I don’t have a panic attack from all the bullshit running through my head.