Put the kids to bed about fifteen minutes early because I’m exhausted and really want them to wind down so I can sleep. I haven’t been able to sleep much lately. I have so many exhausting thoughts running through my head and not a whole lot of friends to tangle them out with. As of late I haven’t had time for friends. I mostly keep to myself and only ask to hang out with Seth or maybe a person or two that I work with. I’m excited about a lot of things but those things are what’s stressing me out the most. I have been in this “Debbie downer fuck off” kinda mood all weekend and it really pisses me off more that I let myself get like that. I wish I could just shift my mind and become happy with things regardless if they are going my way or not. I think I may go for a walk tonight and clear my head. I need some time to just myself to rethink things.